A Talk Between Ego & Dignity

The Personality of a MAN  is reflected in the way he deals with Obstacles and Difficulties, and that what makes him Unique in People's consideration, and that's why less than the minority are called SPECIAL, whilst the rest is UNCHARACTERISTIC. Well, a curious question is being an unavoidable here, when one of those exotic special people's dignity is wounded, how do you think he's going to respond? The day you stop thinking and wondering about how it goes, you cease tasting the core of life at some level, the day people start asking you shallow questions, you have to be aware that you are a shallow-person, yet, you're no longer an interesting person, and that's very dangerous; therefore, your conversations with people will be as limited as your life, a turning point has been occurred lately to the dearest dude i know, he's well-known for TS__ONE, this guy has confronted a situations with someone that made him a better guy, but it seems his life turned head over hill lately, both Forgetfulness and indifference haven't dropped out his handsome face for the couple of days, but this noon a crucial decision was made based on his Ideology, when people were having Exams, he was like a sociopath falling under suspicion, he tried to get over it, but it fucked him over afterward, because he's very sensitive to gestures, no matter how cool he looks, he's still bounded to little tiny gestures that can pump up his mood or smash it down,
this noon i saw him in corner having his coffee, and I could not stand it anymore, i did immediately jump into his space, I said, " Hey, my friend, it's been a while we haven't chatted, what's cracking, you seem isolated." it turned out to me that he was in a complete break of reality, he gazed me with an absent-minded look, he answered, "Do you know how it feels to make a remarkable breakthrough that makes random people feel happy but it's tasteless for you, do you hein? you have no idea how the road seems not fabulous today, my friend thanks for checking out on me, but I'm quite better off without people around, catch you later." he left me in a maze of confusion, I could not decode what he meant, my curiosity didn't allow me to let it go, he trudges, so i followed him, I stopped him,

"hey look man, you look desperate, what's going on, I'm your friend, you know you can trust me, tell me, i can't see you like this, what sort of problems you have?.", he stared at me then he simpers,

" it's so silly and  it's not even a big deal, well, that was at the beginning not now, so you are too curious to know, OK, let's see, have you ever experienced the feeling of being ignored from the one you love the most, not once not twice but three times a row in less then 4hours on top of it, do you, of course you haven't, so you can never feel me bud, that's why I told you I'm better off without people around,  people are fanatics to hear and listen to stories, but they don't feel them, and that's so ironic, to pay attention, but actually you don't, I told you my dilemma is very pathetic, because it's so schizophrenic how could the woman that claimed that she loves me back to not wish me a good luck in what i do, even though i don't believe in it, maybe because she knows I'm not a quite believer in fluke, but what i can't really get how she could not care for the the things that we used to believe is going to make our future, neither skirmish nor wrangles would pull her off to not express a little respect for..."

I interrupted him, " dude you're still talking in a subliminal way, but i guess the key is very simple, pull yourself together and go ahead start the conversation that matters, you can end this silly sufferance anytime you want."

he scratches his  hair then he smirks, " Whooo, you never know how dumb you are till a clever guy steps in, what about my Dignity, what about my attitude that has changed since the moment she left the bubble that we used to see the world from, what about all those nights I stayed up thinking what did I do to deserve this, Hein, what about this afternoon when she saw heading to get examined, if she could not swallow her pride and ego to write me few words, I can not surpass this disrespectful act, because where I'm from  duties are beyond any quarrels' level, her ego is the turning point in our story, because to say sorry takes guts, only few people can make mistakes and they admit what they've done, but her arrogance made the gap hole bigger with each day passing to the extend I came up with a better manner to show her what she's missing here, since people take revenge as back up plan if they got hurt, I'm gonna have one, but in my own way, and since I don't believe in vengeance, and more importantly I still love her, because she's still my Baby no matter what, I'm gonna make her curse the day she didn't have the courage to swallow her haughtiness and say I'm sorry, I'm gonna build a world of fantasy, full of those things I used to orate on when I used to play with her fingers while she's sitting next to me, I'm gonna show her every little advanced move I make, and leave her all alone with her sorrowful phase, that ain't gonna do her any good, i guess i told you everything you were curious to know, and as you see you couldn't help out, but thanks for the talk homie, I gotta bounce off in life."

he turned around and started sauntering, then I was happy to see how his spirit got increasingly revived  within the talk, but i doubt you move on in life my dear, but she definitely will, or maybe the other way around.

رصاصة الرحمة التي أثلجت صدري وأسكنت الطمأنينة في قلبي، أعطتني ليس فقط بصيص من الأمل وإنما الأمل كله، هذا الموهوب بالفطرة الذي كان أخر من توج بجائزة الأكاديمية السنة الفارطة، أبدا لم يلتحق بآي معهد لدراسة التمثيل آو المسرح، لاكن إستطاع آن يجد له مكانا ضمن كبار السينما، هذا ليس هو بيت القبيل، المغزى هنا هو أنه بدأ مسيرته في سن قد يعتبر متأخر نوعا ما بالنسبة لمسيرة ممثل، حيث أولى أفلامه كان سنة 2006 عندما كان يبلغ من العمر 24، و أنا الذي قلت أنني 
.في عداد الموتى و المفقودين، إتضح أن القطار المتجه إلى القمة ليس له ميعاد محدد

                                                 Eddie Redmayne
                         شكرا على الفرحة و الأمل الذي سيغير شكل المستقبل في أعيني

A shadow, By R.K Narayan

A shadow is a narrative story written by R.K Narayan, and tells the hearty experience of two conflicting sentiments that will have a crossover at the end to give an unbearable moment of despair, the story began when the little boy Sambu alongside his mom who live in Tamil in the Southern of India found out that the film of the gone father slash husband is about to be released within a week,  Sambu was intensely keen to see his dead father alive once again, but the mother was refuting the idea of attending the screening, the thing which laid to a wrangle between the two, the boy couldn't conceive how could she bear to live with his portraits that are hung over on the wall everyday life but she cannot watch him speaking, walking, singing for once, at premier's day the level of excitement was increasing with each moment passing for the little boy, he did his best to convince his neighbor at class room to Accompany him to the movie and this movie isn't like any Tamil films, “It is as good as an English picture” and his father got paid ten thousands rupees for acting and writing, but his attempt to persuade this former was in vain, and he eventually went all alone to watch the motion picture after he had taken four Annas from his mother, he finally got to see his father for the first time since he passed away six months ago at the film he wrote himself in which twining around “Kumari, a young girl who refused to marry at fourteen but wanted to study in a university and earn an independent living, and was cast away by her stern father (Sambu’s father) and forgiven in the end.”, he was wearing just the dhoti and shirt he used to wear at home, he was sitting at his table just as he used to sit at home, when he got back home he kept talking how good the film was and he would have loved if it lasted much longer, for a week he kept going to see the film, at the last day the mother could't resist his persistence she agreed to go with him to the theatre, the melting pot was when the movie finally kicked off while she had barely buckled up, few minutes later she would lose her conscious in result of the hight pace of  psychological suffering, but thanks to a bunch of women the unenviable dame succeeded to retrieve her balance, immediately the little boy would jump out to bring her out of the hall, but a sudden familiar voice would spring the silence and speak out, “Kumari! Will you go out or shall I throw you out?” Sambu's heart pounded while his eyes drowned into a flood of tears, then they both left the darkened hall quietly.
The next day they changed the picture.